I think one of my many flaws is my strength. Sometimes I’m just too strong and other times I’m pretending to be stronger than ii actually am and it back fires
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How is it more shocking and outrageous that a white person or hispanic (whatever he was) shot a innocent black kid when young black boys kill each other every day? Nothing shocking or outrageous there huh?
Tomorrow’s Uncertainty Promotes The Urgency
Just laying down thinking about my life and what I’ve done and the people I’ve met. Analyzing situations OVER&& OVER. Trying to figure out how I became who I am today. Wise beyond my years,sensitive against my will and prideful. The right amount of pain mixed with genetics perhaps.
Thinking about how we met and how I had zero interest in you romantically && how it soon changed. All I wanted to do was be around you. No matter what anybody said or how many times you spazzed on me. To this day I wonder if our relationship was less then what we make it seem due to the lack of intimacy and what not. But to me it’s the bond that I’m positive we share that keeps me stuck on you.
However, what I can’t seem to understand is why I can’t I fall in love with someone else or at least find a decent distraction. I can’t think of a logical reason besides we actually belong together for why I’ve been in love with you the last four years. I could just chalk it up to me being flat out crazy, a stalker or pathetic but you talk back and you’ve come back. So I just can’t except none of the above.
Anyway, ever since you told me you were sick last year I’ve been terrified of permanently losing you. && now the loss of my Grandmother adds to that fear. The type of distress losing you would cause is unbearable. I know people say don’t think I like that but it’s real life shit. Anybody can die we all have to and I’m okay with that but I’m not okay with not making the best of every second we have on this earth. Honestly it seems like the time is never right when it comes to us but fck that I can’t except that either! I am not perfect but I deserve to be with the ONE person I love, I mean everyone else does! You’ve been with someone you love right?! All my friends get to be with one they love my brothers get to be with the one they love,Nicey get to be with who she love Andrew bumass get to be with who he love.
I know I’m not the woMAN of your dreams. My head too big,my lips too black and my ass not fat but you know like I know that I’ll go to great lengths to appease you. Every night when lie down to go to sleep I wish you were there and everytime I wake up in the morning I wish I was waking up to you. And anytime something good happens for me I have to fake a smile && share those moments with someone else. && ii don’t want to feel emptiness anymore. :(
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